No lie, this is truly how I feel and the best way to explain it. You know what it was like to do a power hour....30 minutes in and you're swearing at the time keeper accusing him/her of lying. ha ha Training is the same way...you start checking your calendar saying, "no way is it another run day."
What really stinks about me feeling this way is I'm thinking this with SEVERAL more weeks of training ahead of me. OH MY!
A professor I had has run quite a few marathons and told me training gets worse before it gets better....I guess this means things can only get better? I hope (gulp). I can't complain too much considering I'm 11 weeks in and this is where the miles REALLY start adding on. Most of the "problems" I'm having are mental. I find I'm getting myself worked up about long run. I start to wonder if I can actually run what they are asking me to run. I also get worked up when I plan my runs...There are tons of places I can run by my home, but no matter which way I go I have a hill at the end of my run. So that turns into a mental issue where I am literally talking (panting) my way through hills to keep myself going. I have said any number of things like, "power through-you own this hill" to "each step gets you closer to being done" or "keep looking down...you can't see any hill if you are just watching your feet." Then I starting thinking, "I'm officially talking to myself, out loud, and with my iPod on and I don't know how loud I am....I hope nobody is behind me!" ha ha
My running week starts out with a low mileage run (it started with 3 mile runs for 10 weeks, 4 mile runs for 3 weeks, 5 mile runs for 3 weeks then the last 2 weeks are a 4 miler then a 3 miler). I then have a higher mileage mid week run which started out with 3 miles and every 2 weeks adds a mile. (This too will go down in the last 2 weeks of training) The 3rd run of the week goes back down to a low mileage run similar to the Monday runs. Each week ends with a long run on Saturday. (Every 3 weeks there is a drop down for the big Saturday run). Lately all of the runs have been coming faster and faster. I had a 4 mile run this week that was easily one of the worst runs of my training...4 MILES!!! I guess it's better to have a short run go poorly as opposed to a 16 miler. I just wish they were all great runs ha ha!
Most people get excited for the weekend....not me anymore! Weekends mean I have a long run waiting for me. Sure I feel accomplished and proud when it's done, but until it's done I can get apprehensive, anxious and at times I'm straight up dreading the miles I have to run on Saturday. (except for the drop down Saturdays...I treasure those ha ha) Leading up to the long runs kills me, but when I'm out there I feel great! I need to get over my mental block that makes me crazy each week because I know it'll be fine come Saturday. While it may seem completely contradictory to everything I've just written, I can honestly say I'm liking the training.
As I've said before...this is my journey and you're getting the good, the bad and the ugly! Happy Running! :)
What kind of crazy nut would spend two or three hours a day
just running?
(This is how Steve reacted in Junior High when he saw the High School Cross country team running)
(This is how Steve reacted in Junior High when he saw the High School Cross country team running)